14 Jun 2007

Rollercoaster of Crap

Well when i posted at nearly 6am yesterday that i was still doing my portfolio, i hadn't realised that it would take me another 10 hours! What the hell have i been doing with my time (blogging) to let myself get so far behind! So after nearly 3 days without sleep i had a fun roller coaster of emotions, mostly bad i am afraid. To say that i am only slightly disappointed in myself is a slight exaggeration, but i handed the things in. The thing that is worrying me the most is the limited places on the diploma course and the interview stage, as they will question our commitment over the two year stage. I can talk the talk but this lack of preparation and handing in things very late, does not look good at all!

So yes i am feeling sorry for myself! and the bloody father still hasn't sorted out the bloody internet so i am at my sisters again and she is getting loads of babysitting for free!


  1. If the worst happens can you try will have learnt a valuable lesson for another time. I hate knowing your not smiling...hope this exam joke will help.
    A high school English teacher reminds her class of tomorrow's final exam.
    "Now class, I won't tolerate any excuses for you not being there tomorrow. I might consider a nuclear attack or a serious personal injury or illness, or a death in your immediate family - but that's it, no other excuses whatsoever!"
    A smart-ass guy in the back of the room raises his hand and asks,"What would you say if tomorrow I said I was suffering from complete and utter sexual exhaustion?"

    The entire class does its best to stifle their laughter

    When silence is restored, the teacher smiles sympathetically at the student,shakes her head, and sweetly says, "Well, I guess you'd have to write the exam with your other hand."

  2. Bloody crap and bloody hell, what is wrong with your bloody father when it comes to the bloody internet??

    Cheer up, you may not have done as badly as you think. Most of us tend to be harder on ourselves than we are on anybody else so you might have actually done a better job with your portfolios than you think.

    Life has a tendency to get in the way of life. Does that makes sense? If not, ignore me - I need a nap!

  3. I'm with Linda . . .don't be too hard on yourself fate has a way of streering our destiny. What will be will be & I'm sure your portfolio will be graded well x x x

  4. I'm sorry to hear things haven't been going so well.
    But I would like to say that I LOVE the post title "Rollercoaster of Crap."
    Descriptive and humorous. :)
    Hang in there.

  5. I'm with Janna on the title Rollercoaster of Crap
    ...sheer school-overload genius...
    If your portfolio is half as creative, you're IN.

  6. hey red! want me to come over there and have a "chat" with pops? ha ha

    smiles, bee

  7. Well, you have been sick twice since I've known you. That hasn't helped either.

    I agree with Linda, we are really hard on ourselves sometimes and we often do much better than we give ourselves credit for.

    So, if you skate by on this one then all of us will be on your back to take care of business in college and then you can play. How's that? Big hug my friend. :)

  8. You're beating yourself up enough, so I won't pile on. Just focus and re-dedicate going forward.

    The past is past - you only have control over what you do next.

  9. Be kind to yourself. We are harder on ourselves that with anyone else.

  10. Boy, at first I was thinking when I read your post that you and I are suffering from the same type of moody blues crapola and after reading your post and everyone's comments, it gave me the first good chuckle for today with Ruth's joke which brought back a little of my optimistic side so I figure I can now toss in my two cents here!
    You've been sick and that hammers and hampers all your abilities, plans, everything! So many have repeated the bit that we all often tend to be harder on ourselves than there is a need to be and that is a big configuration here too. Just pick yourself up, dust yourself off and tell yourself I'm ok, and there is also somewhere, a reason for all of this too. If it taught you to ease up on playing with the blogging till you get the studies all over and done with, ok, so be it. If it was just meant to maybe put a little fear in there, well it did a good job there too, I bet. But overall, your sense of responsibility kicked into gear and you got things done didn't you, so you proved yourself darned good and capable there as well! The grade is not near as important as the lesson it teaches us in the long run ya know! Smile, sweetheart! That's where the sunshine is.

  11. Oh Claire,
    I really hope things don't turn out as bad as your anticipating. If not this will be a yucky lesson for you to have to of learned. It's a real pisser. They have been saying that students need at least 8 hours of sleep to do their best. I really hope at least you can get some good sleep in now. Take Care.

  12. CRAP is a very good descriptive word but I hope you didn't use it in your portfolio!

    We always think we've done worse than we actually have it's a way of preparing for the worst. You'll be fine!

    I told you your Dad's playing the long game - if he'd sorted out the internet you'd have been on there instead of doing your portfolio wouldn't you? Now come on, be honest.

    Loved Ruth's joke, must remember that one. :)

  13. You need some sleep mate, and a chance to look out of the window and watch the clouds go by for a second.

    Things are never usually as bad as you think, and the person who goes through life doing nothing wrong is usually the one doing nothing.

    Chin up!

  14. Poor Claire!!!

    All that and STILL no internet.. I'd be beating someone about the head to get things fixed!! *HUGS*

  15. I am sure it is not as bad as you think. But, you are a student, you always think things are much worse then they are. I used to do that all the time and look how good I turned out. Wait, scratch that.

  16. Sometimes we need a little a** whooping to get us into shape. Perhaps this was it for you, and now you'll learn not to procrastinate so much.

    Fingers crossed though.

  17. (((hugglies))) Claire. hope things get settled soon. miss you!

  18. Just reading the comments should give you great courage! People are so wise...but the jist of all of this is that we care a heck of a lot about YOU.
    Get some rest and your spirits will realign!!!
    ~~~ Blessings ~~~

  19. England swings like a pendulum
    Clair on bicycles, two by two,
    Westminster Abbey the tower of Big
    We have clone Clair and then

  20. Just checking in on you o' blogging buddy across the pond and sending good thoughts your way!

  21. I have been away on vacation so I have missed your latest posts. I am sure you know the material but the exams spooked you. I was always horrid in exams. I flunked my first English GCE because of that at English was my best subject, I had to take it again. I froze in French conversation so flunked the whole exam although I did okay in the other parts.

    If the worst comes to the worst you can take it again. Remember Winston Churchill was not the top of the class (he flunked several times)but he was a brilliant man.

    Hope you are getting rested up and all will iron out smoothly from now on.

  22. Claire,

    People almost always dread the worst when they are tired and trying to fulfill an obligation. At absolute worst, you will simply pick up the pieces and try again. More than likely because of all your hard work even with the procrastinations, you will do just fine, reach your goals and laugh about just how exhausted you were now that it's over.

    Good luck with the outcome and getting your internet back.

  23. Oh Claire...keep us posted!
    I'm with Trav, just stay focused. You can only move forward from here on out! :)

    I'm missin' ya terribly.