I promise no more bra on head photos, with Olga gone its hard, no bra fits my head quite like she did. As Mo suggested I think I am suffering from P.O.D, otherwise known as Post Olga Depression. I wonder if her past hosts also suffered from this affliction? This is said in jest, just in case I confuse you with the serious tone of the rest of this post.
All the photos I have posted lately of me, where all taken on the same night after I had had a drink or two. I feel the need to say this, as you know I have stated quite a few times that I hate my photo being taken. Well it was still just me taking the photos, there is something about having a bra on your head that makes photo taking less yucky. Also I had kinda promised myself that I would post more photos of myself especially to mark occasions in my life that I want to remember. I probably picked the photo's that looked the least like me, which probably sounds strange because they are all me.I find myself looking at the pictures, then in the mirror and trying to fathom what I really look like.
In this post Me, me, me and me again I wrote about my feelings about having my photograph taken and my own motivations for change, one big one was the wedding back in June, where I was a bridesmaid. The wedding was lovely and everything apart from me being a bridesmaid was lovely. I just didn't enjoy the experience at all and have refused to look at the pictures or watch the video. I hope it doesn't come across as me being ungrateful, I loved being a part of the wedding and loved the fact that I was asked to be a bridesmaid. I caught a glimpse of one of the photo's of me from that day and felt sick, if I could of got away with stealing it and shredding it, I probably would of. Instead I just put it back and acted like I hadn't even seen it. I know Emma is probably pissed off with me for not wanting to watch the wedding DVD with her, but it would be hard to watch it through a pillow over my face.
I knew this would be hard and that I wouldn't get over it over night, but I think I have took a few baby steps and I find myself going back to that me, me, me and me again post just to read all the wonderful things people wrote in the comments. I am not sure if this post counts as a progress report, because I am not sure I have made much progress? On one hand I have posted and photographed myself more in the last few months than ever before, on the other hand it is still only myself taking photos.
I have loved the silent movie star suggestions in regards to my photos below, they certainly knew how to express a myriad of emotions by just using facial expressions and wonderfully expressive eyes. I continue to love photography and photographs of other people, even the odd bra on head photograph.
Who knows what I will post next?